Having 2 children
our experience so far...
I will tell you that my heart aches some days when Grayson is sad and all he wants is his mommy to sit with him or play with him, but I can't because I am caring for Crew or nursing him.
For example I experienced this first hand yesterday afternoon. I picked up Grayson from daycare at 3:30PM. They said that he had a WONDERFUL day at daycare. Slept great, eat very well, and played great. So I thought wow we are going to have a great time when we get home. I was wrong...
The moment we walked into the door it was tear after tear. It all started with me showing him a new shirt I purchased him. I am not a big fan of character T's, but Grayson is totally into Toy Story right now and Old Navy had a cute collectible Toy Story T-Shirt that I thought Grayson would love. I was wrong I showed him the shirt and I thought he would instantly want to put it on. Nope... he cried and cried because Woody was on the shirt and he could not take him off. So I decided the best thing to do was put the shirt away. So after that we got a snack and moved into the playroom to play. At this moment I could tell he was missing me because if I left the room he would cry or he would quickly start searching for me in the house. I decided it was best for me to just stay in the playroom and play with him. Well than Crew needed attention as in needed to eat. This did not sit well for Grayson. I ended up sitting on the playroom floor nursing Crew and holding a bubble bottle so Grayson could blow bubbles. This is the only thing that made him happy. It was a great moment between Grayson and I, if though it was difficult to nurse and play at the same time, as he finally learned to blow bubbles and he was so excited. He would get the biggest smile on his face and start jumping up and down. It was adorable! It was messy, but worth every moment.
However than the bubbles spilled and nothing was left cue tears again from Grayson. I was still nursing Crew so I had to come up with something else to make Grayson happy... nothing was working he just wanted me to hold him. It was tough and I hated that he was sad. So I ended up having Crew in my arms and Grayson sitting on my lap at the same time. I turned on Shrek and all was okay for a few moments. I finally got Crew settled down and happy. I put him in the nap nanny and quickly started dinner for Grayson before Crew started getting fussy. Crew stayed happy all through Grayson's dinner and the moment we started bath time for Grayson Crew had a enough and wanted me to hold him. So I had Crew and Grayson both in the bathroom. Grayson in the tub and Crew on the bathroom rug hanging out so I could finish up with Grayson's bath. We moved into the living room finished getting Grayson dressed Crew cried the entire time, but there was nothing else I could do at the moment. I had to quickly get Grayson dressed and settled. Until daddy got home we all sat on the couch and snuggled and watched Shrek. Grayson was finally his happy self after a little attention and food...just in time for daddy to walk in the door and guess what Crew was sleeping too.
I will say finding a balance is tough, but with each day I am hoping it gets better. This is just what it is like having two.
Happy 4 Weeks to our little peanut!