a road less traveled

A road less traveled... infertility.  Most of my readers started reading my blog when we were going through infertility.  Now it seems these days I blog more about my family, especially Grayson.  Which is VERY true because they bring me SO much joy!  I feel as if I abandoned the topic of infertility after getting pregnant and having Grayson.  It was not on purpose.  I think that when you have JOY you tend to show that JOY each and every day.  This is exactly what I do each day! 

So why am I writing a post on infertility today?  This week I spent the working days listening to the new Selah CD and one particular song {I Look To You} spoke so much to me in our road to infertility.  After listening to it over and over again my heart was telling me that this song may help others find the strength on the road of infertility.  I encourage you to listen to the words, feel inspired, feel strength to keep moving forward, know that you are not alone and GOD is with you every step of the way holding your hand.  Take his hand and let him show you the way. 

Believe and have Faith that GOD has his PERFECT timing for your life.  I believe this so much.  Looking back on our journey I know that once I looked to GOD he took care of me and I am forever grateful to him. 
You are not alone and if you need to talk to someone I am always here to listen.  Each of you waiting for your miracle child you are in my prayers always!

At the beginning of the song Amy from Selah gives her introduction to the song and what it means to her.  I know that this will inspire so many even if you are not walking the road of infertility. 

Have a blessed and wonderful LONG weekend!

National Infertility Awareness Week - Our Story

Picture taken by Amie Hansen Photography

A good Blogging Friend of mine Tiffany from The Pifer's Journey asked me to write our story as part of her week long dedication to NIAW. 

Here is a brief intro to our story:

Us girls all have fairy tales, dreams, desires, wants, and plans for our future. We feel that if we make these plans that they will come true. My dreams have come true, but the timing of the dreams aren't always when I thought it would be. Let me start at the beginning. Our story began when Chad and I got married in September 26th, 2006. We spent our first year of marriage truly enjoying our marriage as a couple. It was a great first year! Towards the end of the first year Chad and I went on a 1st Year Anniversary Trip to Mexico and a month before leaving we decided to go off the pill and start trying to have a baby. We spent the next 10 months trying on our own with no success at all. I was scheduled for my yearly OBGYN appointment and we decided that we would seek additional help. I still remember that day as if it was yesterday sitting in the doctor's office telling my OBGYN that we were having problems and then our world was turned upside down.

You can go to Tiffany's blog today and read this rest of our AMAZING story!  Thanks Tiffany for allowing me to give hope to all couples facing infertility.  I will continue to pray for you and Zach that all your dreams will come true!  As well as all the SWEET couples that are facing infertility and longing to hold a baby some day! 

With love ~ Melissa

Show Us Your Ministry - Infertility

This week Kelly @ Kelly's Korner is doing Show Us Your Ministry.  Although I don't have a ministry I do have a story to share with you.  If you have followed my blog for some time you know that my husband and I struggled for 2 years to get pregnant.  It was a tough two years, but we are finally expecting our first miracle in May 2010 and we feel so blessed. 

You can go here to read our complete story! 

Chad and I did all fertility treatments possible to get pregnant in 2008-2009 before we decided that enough was enough and we took a break during the summer of 2009.  We decided during the break that we would try to focus on our relationship with one another and with God.  Our relationship grew with God and we left it up to him to show us what to do next.  I still remember those tough months of TTC on our own and then "Aunt Flo" would show up.  It was frustrating, but I continued to pray to God to heal me and help me understand all that was going on.  Back in early September 2009 I was at church and I remember going down to the alter to pray and I just broke down in tears, but I felt God with me telling me it would be okay and I just need to believe.  After that day I just gave it all to God and said you can have my worries and troubles I can't handle it anymore.  I was done! 

Then in late September 2009 I took a home pregnancy test and it was positive!  It was amazing!  In fact I had a hard time believing I was pregnant so all week before my doctor's appointment I took a test just to make sure.  Today I am 26 weeks and 4 days pregnant.  It is a miracle and a true blessing from God.  My relationship with God is strong and he is the center of our family.  I know God is holding my hand every day and will take care of me.  It might not be when I would like for things to happen, but God has a plan for me and I just have to sit and be patient.  God and our church family has changed my life over the past year and I feel blessed for everything that I have and look forward to the many more blessings and the trials that come with them. 

Now that I have briefly shared with you my ministry or story I would like to leave all couples with a few things that helped me through infertility.  First as I have mentioned in this post God was a huge support for me.  Second my blog and being open and honest about infertility.  I have received so much positive and encouraging words on my blog that on those low days I didn't feel alone...I had all of you.  Lastly reaching out to other infertility couples that could understand the feelings and struggles was so helpful as they knew what I was feeling without saying a word.  So if you would like to share your story with me and need encouragement just leave me a comment or email me and I would love to be there for you as so many people were for me. 

Please have faith and believe that it will happen to you!

Don't forget to stop by Kelly's Korner!

A look back and A look forward!

Happy New Year's Eve to all my blogging friends! Please note that there will not be any photos in this post as we are traveling. I hope today will be a day where you can reflect back on the year and see all the wonderful moments you have been given. I know I am doing this today and feeling blessed. It was in fact one of the toughest years for me, but without the trials I had I would not be the person I am. I believe that God put people in my life for so many reasons this year. I don't think I could have gotten through the months of fertility treatments without Chad, my family, and friends. I am thankful for all the new friendships and blogging friends I have met over this past year. I have become a stronger person because of the role models that surrounded me. I feel blessed that going into 2010 I have some great friends and family to be there for me for the greatest gift I recieved this year, our baby. The most important blessing I have recieved this year was my relationship with God has changed and developed into something so great and powerful that I don't want to let it go. Walking in faith and believing in his word has done such amazing things for me this past year and I hope it continues. My relationship with Chad is much better and our marriage has a strong base to bring a child into it and for this I am forever grateful. My only New Year's Resolution is to be a better Christian and focus more on God and his Glory.
I am excited to see what 2010 brings for my family and I know it will be the BEST year! I wish that 2010 will be the year for all the couples that are facing infertility will recieve the gift of a child or children. May God Bless you all this year! With BIG hugs I hope you have a great New Year's Eve!


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Closing the Chapter

As part of our IVF journey we received our first picture of our two embryos that they transferred on April 19th, 2009. I know that the cycle did not work out, but I want this picture as a memory in our blog to share our story with our kids some day. And yes I just got around to scanning the picture in my computer.

This will be my final comment about our failed IVF cycle as I am closing this chapter and moving forward into the summer with positive and happy thoughts of the future. It will be tough, but I know that this is the best thing for me and GOD has plans for us! We just don't know the plans yet. What I do know is that I am a wonderful person and wonderful people deserve wonderful things in life. I do have wonderful things in my life, I have my wonderful husband who has been our rock through the ups and downs, I have my loving and caring dog Bella who is always happy and excited to see me and be with me every day. I love you both so much!

I have my loving and caring sister Amie and her adorable family Brian, Aidan, and Drew.

I have my positive and outgoing sister Meahgen who makes me smile. (BTW... thanks for the beautiful flowers)

I have my amazing and strong sister Jessyca and soon to be niece Marley that love unconditionally.

I have my caring and loving mom, Shelly, who will do anything for me to achieve my dreams.

I love all my family and friends for there unconditional support. I have my friends that I lean on for support here locally, but I also have an amazing friend Katie Cummings who has given me more support than she will ever know. Finally to all my blogging friends I would have not gotten through the sad days without your thoughtful comments and support. Everyone seems to have a story and I am just glad that thru your stories I am able to find support and love in one place. Love to All!

So whats next since I am not talking about infertility and IVF for awhile. I need to find interesting topics and stories so that all my blogging friends keep stopping by. Any ideas?

Questions of the Moment

I get the following questions... Are you going to try again? What are your next steps in trying to have a baby? What did the doctor say? What went wrong? How are you doing?

So I thought that I would take time to answer the pressing questions.

Chad and I have decided for now that we are not trying IVF again. My body needs a break and I think it is okay for us to be sad and take time to get over the failed IVF cycle. I don't want to jump back into IVF at this moment as I am weak and I don't think I would handle the shots and the drive back and forth to Tulsa very well. I was getting tired of the shots and the drive can get old after 12 times going for the past month. I am not saying that we will not try IVF again, but for the moment we are taking a BREAK!

Yes we still want to have a baby, but we want to enjoy life. I want to stop for a moment and not think about IVF or infertility. I want to enjoy my friends and family. I want to be happy again before we try to have a baby. So our next steps are to enjoy life and just maybe we will be blessed sometime this summer. I promise to keep everyone posted on the baby front, but for now we are focusing on each other and the people around us. It is a much needed BREAK!

The visit to our Doctor in Tulsa stated that it is possible for us to have a baby we just need to have more eggs to play with, which means more medicine, and we need better fertilized embryos. Which means instead of a three day transfer we need to get to a five day transfer. They said we can start a new cycle when we are ready, but as I said before we are taking a BREAK!

What went wrong during this cycle? We did not have the best fertilized embryos. That is all that went wrong. He would like us to try IVF again and they would like to adjust medicine and hopefully after the egg and sperm come together we get a fertilized embryos. But at this moment we are taking a much needed BREAK!

How am I doing? I am doing okay. I have good days and bad days. I have the days when I can't believe we spent so much time and effort getting pregnant with a BIG FAT NEGATIVE at the end of our journey. It is sad! Than I have a few days when I don't think about it because my husband Chad helps me get through the day. The reason for the BREAK is that I need to have a positive and happy feeling about the journey of IVF again and know that it will work. For now I don't have those feelings and this is why we are taking a BREAK!

BREAKS are good! Even though I would like to be pregnant and hold a baby in 9 months I am at peace with me decision. This BREAK is what I need. Thank you for the continued support and prayers. I hope all the couples that are trying to conceive a baby have their dreams come true soon!

With love Melissa!

Failed IVF Cycle Consult

UPDATE!

First I would like to say thanks Mom for the beautiful flowers. They sure do brighten my day!



Chad and I have decided to take a break from IVF after some talking and my body needs a rest. It has been through a lot and I am not ready to start a new cycle. Thanks for all your love and support!
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Today Chad and I went to Tulsa for our failed IVF consult. I was nervous for the appointment because I was not sure what to expect. I didn't want to hear you can't get pregnant or any other bad news. Well we didn't get bad news we just got the news that we can do another cycle if we would like and they would adjust medicines and try to get more eggs to play with and hopefully have more fertilized embryos. They were happy that I did get pregnant and that was a good sign they just don't have the answers other than the embryos were not as healthy as they would have liked before the transfer. We did not make any decisions on what we would do next. To be completely honest with you my body is hurting right now and I am having hormones changes and the worst stomach cramps. I am sitting at home with a heating pad and taking pain pills to ease the discomfort. I wanted to give everyone an update of our appointment. Thanks again for your continued support and prayers. I am off to go and rest! I hope everyone has a great Friday!

What to do...

I first would like to thank everyone for their supporting and comforting words on my last post. It truly has meant so much to me that some many people care and have similar stories to mine. It gives me encouragement that I am not alone in a failed IVF cycle. I am still sad and lost. I am trying to be strong and be okay with the fact that our cycle was a failure, but it is hard. I don't want to go through the entire process of shots, medicines, ultrasounds, blood draws, egg retrieval, embryo transfer, and the two week wait. I just want to be pregnant now. I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to think about infertility. I just want my journey of infertility to be over with. I want to be a mommy. I don't understand how you can have appointment after appointment and the doctor says everything was text book perfect. How can it be text book perfect and I am not pregnant? That does not make any sense. I don't understand how you can put a egg and a sperm together and create an embryo and when the embryo goes back into my belly I am not pregnant, how does this happen? Why did it not work? I remember back in February when we decided to pursue IVF I was so excited and confident that we would get pregnant. I would have never imagined that I would be sitting here today completed a IVF cycle and I am not pregnant. What happened? Tomorrow I am hoping that Doctor Prough can give me some answers. I am not sure what our next step will be, we don't have any embryos frozen so if we decide to pursue another IVF cycle we would have to start over. Anyone who has been through IVF knows how expensive it is. I am worried that we will not be able to afford to do another cycle and our journey to become parents will be over. This makes me so sad inside. I want to stay in bed all day and cry, but I know this is unhealthy, but it seems easier than getting up and staying busy. I have great friends and family that are supportive and caring. I know each of them wants to take away my pain, but the fact is that they can't, for now I have to hurt, I have to get through the heartbreak of another failed attempt to getting pregnant. A dear friend of mine Kelly brought me beautiful flowers on Monday afternoon and she simply just hugged me and cried with me. She knows the struggle to become a mommy and she understands how I am feeling without me saying anything. On Tuesday I had a planned lunch date with Kelly and another great friend Ashley. Ashley has the best spirit and is so happy with her life. She is expecting her first baby any day and with her positive attitude about life and me getting pregnant she was able to make me smile. Thanks girls for the lunch date, as hard as it was to get up and get ready for the day I needed to get out and find comfort from friends. It still hurts I take my prenatal vitamins every night and for the past two nights I take that pill and I just cry. Why am I taking these vitamins I am not pregnant and it continues to be a reminder that I am not pregnant. It hurts and I am hurting inside and not sure what our next steps should be... that to me is the most frustrating. I want to know the future... I want to know what I should do... should I do another IVF cycle? I feel that I have to have the answers before we go to the doctor tomorrow. Should I just listen to want Doctor Prough suggests? So many questions... If you have experienced IVF and would like to share your thoughts on what I should do I would welcome any suggestions.

I want to end this post by telling everyone that I have the most supportive husband. He took Monday and Tuesday off to be with me. Today he went back to work and sent me the most caring and thoughtful email. I am going to share it with you all. I love my husband so much!

A Word For The Day

John 1:16 From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another. Learn to declare good thins over your life. If you are negative and critical toward yourself, your own words can stop God's best plan from coming to pass into your life . Chad wrote, we must be thankful for what he has given us and not focus so much on what we have not received. I know it is hard but we must stay positive through this all. We have each other and that is the most important thing.

Ephesians 5:28 In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. Husband, you need to look at your wife and see if she is reflecting your glory. Your wife should be strong, confident, secure, beautiful, radiant, and healthy. You should see her smile. You should see it in the way she carries herself. Chad wrote, I can see all these things in you that is why I know we will get through this together, and we will one day be parents. I know this and feel this in my heart. I just need you to have the same faith and trust me and GOD.

Of coarse when I read his email I cried. He ended the email with saying I want to see you happy again. I want to be happy too.

The News... That Broke My Heart

We are not pregnant! That is all I can say at this moment! We are not pregnant. How is this possible? We have spent the past three month preparing and going through the time consuming process of IVF and to hear today that we are not pregnant is a shocking and completely devastating. If you have followed my blog for awhile you know that we have tried for the past two years to have a child with no success. So we walked down the road of IVF and it failed. I never thought that it would fail, I strongly believed that it would work. So now I am left with a million questions of why. Why did this happen, what did I do wrong? I did not blog about our egg retreival or our embryo transfer as I was not quite ready to share the details of these days. So for the short story we had our egg retrieval on April 16th, 2009 and they retreived 11 eggs. Out of the 11 eggs 9 matured and 3 fertilized. On April 19th, 2009 we transferred 2 embryos and had one remaining that would see if it could make it to the freezing stage, but it didn't. For the next three days I was on bed/coach rest trying to take it easy and allowing my body to accept the embryos. For the next two weeks it was the waiting game, this was the longest two weeks. On May 1st we received our first beta results of 17, which was a low positive and they could not declare I was pregnant, than on May 4th I had another blood test and the beta results were 98, which was a great feeling we could actually be pregnant. However they wanted to do one more test and on May 11th (which is today) I received the news that my beta results are 19 and it probably will not be a successful pregnancy. I have been instructed to stop all medicines and at this moment as I write this post I am completely lost and defected. My heart is heavy and is broken once again. Now we just wait and find some way to figure out what our next steps are in our journey of infertility. I am sad and I will continue to be sad because it is okay. I just want to be a mother like all my sisters and friends. Thanks for all your prayers and support over the past few months. You have been a great support system for me. Now I must go as my heart is so sad!

Waiting and Hoping

Infertility to me is... Waiting, Hoping, Disappointment, Frustration, Coping, Anger, Despair, Optimism, Bitterness, Loneliness, Confusion, Hormones, and Sadness.

What does it mean to you?

Longing for a Miracle

Infertility Post - Amazed!

Before doing research and seeking help by doctors I thought that I was the only person with issues with getting pregnant. My thought was due to the fact that all our friends around me have babies or kids and it did not seem like they had any issues. That is how naive I was to infertility. They could have had issues... but I did not know! Even when we began testing I still was not aware of the word infertility or the fact that I would have issues with fertility. First I will start by telling everyone that we did in fact begin trying to have a baby in the summer of 2007 and we spent the year enjoying trying to have a baby until the summer of 2008. Once the summer hit and we were still not pregnant I became concerned and during my annual exam I explained to my doctor that we had been trying for a year to get pregnant with BFN each month. Of course my desire to have a baby led to tears during our visit and we immediately began testing. I went to the doctor for several blood work tests, I had the Fallopian tube test (which was horrible), and ovulation testing. Which all resulted in us seeking help to make sure that all was well with Chad. In the end my doctor felt that with the assistance of Artificial Insemination (IUI) we would get pregnant. With an IUI you have to time the procedure with the help of an ovulation predictor kit, which helps determine if I was ovulating. We were able to time it right and we had our first IUI in December of 2008. The procedure is not too painful, just uncomfortable. The worst part is having to wait two weeks to find out if I was pregnant. I just knew I was pregnant, but at the end of the two weeks AF (my period) showed up and gave me the heartbreaking answer that no it did not work! I was so upset I could not believe that it did not work. So we timed it right again and we were able to try another IUI again in January 2009. So again waiting for two weeks is what we did! It was tough because I had a feeling that it did not work and again AF showed up at the end of the two weeks and I was again heartbroken. I remember during this time friends telling me it will happen don't worry it will happen, but it hasn't happened. What next? I remember being so upset with the second IUI that I was ready to give up! Having my dreams be destroyed each month and getting upset each month was to much for me, but for some reason at the beginning of each month I found hope and I was ready to try something new! So that is what we did we started something new! February 2009 was the month we began our journey with the Tulsa Fertility Center. This is the month that I finally realized that we are walking in the shoes of a couple with infertility. I remember the day like it was yesterday... we met with Dr. Stanley Prough on February 18th, 2009 to discuss what our options were and we both went into the meeting with the same goal and objectives. Our goal was to have a baby and our objective was to do what the doctor ordered. If he said you should do another IUI we would do another IUI... if he said we needed to have surgery or additional testing we would do it... if he said that we needed to do IVF we would do it... it was in his hands he was in control at this point. After a few tests on me... which was a vaginal ultrasound... very uncomfortable and something I cannot and will not ever get use to having done... it was concluded that we needed IVF to have a baby. I was so thankful that we had a plan and we were heading in the right direction, but at the same time I was clueless on the process of IVF. I immediately started during research as soon as we got home. I was shocked on the amount of information that is online about IVF. I remember spending late nights reading on stories and the process of IVF for several days. I was so happy I was full of the knowledge and understanding of IVF. I was both excited and terrifed at the same time if that is possible. IVF is no laughing joke it is serious... it time consuming... it is finanically consuming... it is emotional... so going into the process with blind eyes is not recommended! So my first advice to any couples out there that are beginning the journey of IVF READ READ AND READ... know as much information as you can. It makes the process easier and understandable when you have appointments. As well to all the friends out there that know couples that are facing infertility or IVF please take the time to read about what they are going through... It might help with your friendship with them and the feelings they might be having during their journey with IVF or Infertility. Walking alone in the process of IVF is very difficult and if you don't have someone that understands the feelings you are having than you may feel alone and lost. I would also recommend reaching out to the Blogging community... I was amazed at how many people out their blog about infertility. It helped me in so many ways and has continued to help me. I thank god everyday that I started this blog...thanks Kelly...if not I would have not met the people I have met today and I would be lost in the walk of IVF and infertility. I have learned so much from the following blogs:
Shannon
Kelly
Lianna
Our Journey
I hope you have enjoyed walking in my shoes for a few minutes. Have a Wonderful Week Ahead!

National Infertility Week Join Me for a Week Long Journey!

April 25th - May 2nd 2009

As a person that is experiencing infertility I know first hand how many women out there are wanting to be pregnant and experience motherhood. So I am supporting national infertility week by spending the week sharing little stories and insights about infertility in hopes that it will help many women cope with infertility and mom's out there understand what infertility is and how much it hurts to be faced with infertility. So I hope you can join me for the journey.

Grateful for my Blog

I don't think I would have been able to get through the past few months without my blog and the wonderful people I have met through my blog. It is strange that I can find great comfort in my struggles with infertility by reading other bloggers struggles with infertility. It amazes me that there are in fact a lot of people that struggle with infertility... I always felt alone. I felt alone because all my close friends and family have not had any issues getting pregnant. They don't know how it feels to try each month to get pregnant and at the end of the month discover that it didn't happen is heartbreaking. They don't know how it feels to under go test after test to discover nothing is wrong with you. Yes something is wrong I can't get pregnant is the thoughts I have every time we got the results back saying you are fine. They don't know how it feels to go to kid's birthday parties and celebrate birthdays when all you want is to celebrate your own child's birthday party. They don't know how I feel when friends and family tell me they are expecting, how could they... they have never faced infertility. Infertility is in my life and it has changed me over the past few years. I don't want people to be sensitive to the fact that I do not have kids I just want to feel normal, but that is not the case. People close to me are afraid to ask how things are going, they are fearful that I am going to break down, they are worried that they may hurt my feelings, whatever it is it seems as if this thing called infertility takes over and I just wish sometimes that I could go back two years ago and feel normal. The sense of feeling normal in the blog world is helpful because there are in fact so many people that have faced infertility or are facing it today. I love getting their love and support... I feel normal and okay around these people. I just wish I could feel this way around everyone else. Will this change or will I always feel this way? So I would have to say that I am very grateful for my blog and it is great therapy to me...

Signs from God

I just wanted to share this moment with everyone and basically would like to have it written down some where for me to look back at some day soon.

Chad called me from work this morning and he received a email from a child school friend that he has not spoken to in many years. The email stated that he had a dream about Chad holding a baby in a pink blanket beside a woman in a hospital bed. Congrats! Let me know when it comes true. Wow is the only words that could come out of my mouth. I hope that this is god's way of saying your miracle is on the way. I wish we could email him back with that wonderful news, but for now we will have to wait and see what happens. We will see!

If you are walking in our journey you will totally understand how I felt when he read the email to me! Happy Monday Friends and Family!

Put a Smile

On My Face...

Things that make me smile:
1. Getting home and our dog Bella is excited to see me
2. Getting flowers from Chad... I love the tulips he got me on Thursday
3. Shopping for new purses or shoes.. which is what we did today, however no luck but last weekend in Tulsa I got the cutest Steve Madden shoes... check them out

4. Seeing new pictures of my nephew Aidan he is getting so Big - he is Now 3 Years Old
5. Seeing our friends Kim and Brad Fisher and their adorable girls Kendall and Kelsey. We had dinner with them tonight and it was great to play with them and see their smiling faces
6. Eating Brownies with Chocolate Icing... always makes me smile... yes tonight we had brownies for dessert
7. When my husband opens the car door for me... what a gentleman
8. Watching Reality TV shows that allow me to escape from my life... today I indulged in The Millionaire Matchmaker and The Real Housewives of New York City
9. Snuggling on the couch with Chad and watching Sunday night shows.. I am looking forward to tomorrow night... plus Chad is cooking and cleaning dinner that really makes me smile
10. A warm day makes me smile because I can take a walk and enjoy the sun... I hope that we get some warm days next week

What makes you smile? I believe smiling is a great quality and can make a huge difference in a day. Take some time and smile :)

I know I have a lot to smile about!

Wishing and Hoping and Praying

Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying

Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying

Planning and dreaming, each night, of her charms

Planning and dreaming, each night, of her charms

That won't get you into her arms

That won't get you into her arms

So if I am looking to find love

So if I

I can share

I can share

All I gotta do is hold her and love her and show her that I care
All I gotta do is hold her and love her and show her that I care

And Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying

Truly that is all that is left, wishing and hoping and thinking and praying that I am able to get pregnant. It is in the hands of Dr. Prough and Dr. Blackwell and faith that God will give me my miracle. Thanks for all your loving support and kind words. I greatly appreciate it!

One prayer request for my sister Amie, baby Hansen is due in 18 days and the baby's kidney is still dilated and for now they have to wait until the baby is due to do further testing. As you know this has brought extremely stress and anxiety to Amie and she could use a few prayers to help her get through the final days of her pregnancy. Amie my heart goes out to you and we love you! Take care of yourself and baby Drew!

2AM Trigger Me Happy

So before going to bed last night I set three alarm clocks to wake us up at 2AM for a shot I had to take. It was important not to miss the time as it would mess up everything we have done up to this point. I was full of anxiety and was worried that we would not wake up, but we did and it was not fun! Getting up to take a shot in the middle of the night is very interesting as we were both half a sleep. Chad did a great job and the shot did not hurt to bad. Than off to bed we went. I actually slept in a bit and Chad was out the door by 6:30AM to work. I am spending the day relaxing and enjoying the weather as today it is going to be 70 degrees here in Arkansas. Have a Happy Spring!

Happy 3rd Birthday Aidan! Today is Aidan's 3rd Birthday he is such a handsome boy and I just love seeing and hearing about his stories through my sister's blog... Amie!

Spring In My Step

As Spring has arrived again in NWA I am very HAPPY for the sunny walks I can take with Bella. What makes you HAPPY about the Spring weather?

So I have a few updates for our IVF Journey:
1. I no longer need to take Dexamethasone
2. I no longer need to give myself the Follistim injection
3. I no longer need to have Chad give me the Ganirelix injection
4. We are making progress...
5. I know for sure that the drive to Tulsa is getting very old... (2 hours both ways, but it will be worth it)

Please continue to keep me in your thoughts in prayers for the next few weeks. I am at peace and know that everything is in the hands of Dr. Prough and his team to make me a baby! I have faith in God and I believe strongly that it will happen.

Thank you for your continued support!